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18th-Jun-2009 09:43 pm - Archive (old)
I'm currently a junior, and it's a known fact that juniors don't sleep (or most Tech people in general, really).

It's not as if I have an awful lot of APs or homework on a daily basis, but my life in general gets busy.

I'm on the track team and I have to babysit my 6-year-old brother 5 days a week (cooking for him, making sure he bathes and does homework and etc). Both of my parents work. I usually get home at about 6-6:30 every weekday and do my short term homework within a few hours while I juggle my other chores.

I've always had problems with time management and it has gotten especially detrimental this year. I almost always get over my short term work as soon as I get home but I tend to procrastinate long term assignments. Time just flies and by the time I finish most of what I have to do, it's already 10 pm. I usually just want to get to bed as soon as possible so I lay off my long-term assignments to one or two days before.

On a good day, I would get a little less than more 6 hours. The times vary, but it's usually less than 6. Sometimes when I'm feeling especially tired and I have to complete a long-term project I've procrastinated or study for a test, I would take a nap at 11 or 12 pm and wake up around 1-3 am to finish homework without going back to bed.

Consequently, I am dead tired every weekday. Falling asleep in class has been an issue for years. But it's gotten worse, especially this year. Now I usually can't get through the day without dozing off in at least three classes. My grades (which were never too good to begin with) have sunken this year. I'm borderline failing in pre-cal and my physics grades may be headed in the same direction. I've tried caffeine, I've tried chewing gum, and nothing seems to work.

I know that there is plenty of people in tech who run on less than three hours a night on a daily basis and still manage to fulfill their responsibilities at home and stay alert/do well in school. But I am not one of them.

Heck, I doze off everywhere and anywhere. A few days ago I even dozed off while a friend was talking to me on our subway ride home. I've also dozed off while leaning against a wall while my track coach was talking to the team.

I've tried to reset my priorities. I go to track alot less often now but it hasn't made things too much easier. If I don't go to track I get home at about 4 pm and start my homework. I only finish one or two before I have to go pick up my brother from afterschool. And it's the same responsibilities over again and I'm not going to bed any earlier or starting my long-term assignments any earlier.

I know I should just ask my parents to find someone else to care for my brother. But the economy has been bad and they can't really afford one right now.

My motivation and drive to work hard in school has been weathering because of my situation. I've lost interest in almost all my classes because I have a tenuous grasp of almost every subject. Even subjects I used to do well in in the past.

On weekends, I tend to do absolutely nothing and lazy around and leave my homework for Sunday.

It's a vicious cycle.

You may be wondering why I'm typing this when I'm supposed to be at school. I'm taking the day off because I have to do literature reviews for my SSR class. We weer supposed to have at least 10 for today. But due to my incessant dozing, there was a grave misunderstanding. I did not start even one until last night (one takes 1-2 hours to complete).

Am I just a lazy procrastinator who is just making excuses? Do I need professional help?

I am really at my wit's end.

Help??
24th-Oct-2008 10:42 pm - Stupid Drama
On August 30th, I ended my trial relationship in a park bench with my brother 30 feet away. He went home mourning, I went home and made pasta.

School started, everything was fine. Things were awkward, but I waved to him and ask how he was doing from time to time.
He was still upset, but I thought everything was as good as it could get.


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In other news, this is my school on tv:


I actually fell asleep while everyone else was screaming. As you can see I have no spirit.

12th-Oct-2008 04:29 pm - Archi
It makes me sick when people put down others because of their level of education. I also find it extremely funny when I realize that half of the English majors in the world, from Harvard, Princeton, and Yale, English majors with full scholarships and grants, are going to wind up working in fast food joints for the rest of their lives. I once knew a woman who went to Tulane University on full scholarship. Now she's thirty-four, works at a burger place, and frequents S&M bars whenever she's got the time off. I know several people, who have dropped out before even finishing their junior year of high school and make enough money to feed a small country for a year.

Somewhere along the way, society has corrupted us into thinking that schooling equals intelligence. I think that's the biggest heap of bullshit I've ever heard in my life. Some of the most intelligent people I've ever known in my life were high school dropouts or attend third-tier universities. The best writer I know is now newly unemployed and drinking keg beer in his apartment. And, for that matter, some of the biggest idiots, dumbasses, jerks, and bastards are attending the best universities in the country right now. Princeton, Yale, Harvard. The type of people I wouldn't even so much as give the time of day to because they're just too boring to be around. Who cares if they can prove this or that? They've memorized it all from the math books anyway.

I think it's sick when people judge someone over a piece of paper that has had less attention paid to its making than an ordinary bank check.

I don't think that anyone should be forced to go to college. I don't think there's much in college outside of booze and sex. Some people might say: "Oh you learn about organic chemistry" or "Oh you learn how to write." Well Jesus, if you wanted to learn about organic chemistry, then pick up a book at the library. If you wanted to learn how to write, then give it up, because there's no point in even learning if you don't know how at eighteen-years-old already. The more I attend college, the more I've become convinced that it is merely the coming together of many exceptionally mediocre people who try to override the averageness of their lives with diplomas and titles.

It's also interesting to point out that the most memorable people have never entered or finished college. Edgar Allen Poe. William Blake. William Shakespeare. John Milton. F. Scott Fitzgerald. Jack Kerouac. All of The Beatles. George Washington. And yet, look at who we study so vigorously in college. Shakespeare, Milton, Fitzgerald, Kerouac, Blake, Poe. One could possibly say that we go to college to worship people who had the sense, the passion, and the talent to forego college. In other words, we go to college to study 'idiots,' people without 'education.'

And people say that dropouts are worthless, shallow, stupid. But what is worthlessness but to be forgotten as soon as the dirt on your grave settles? What is shallowness but to care only for money for as long as your heart beats? And what is stupidity but jealousy towards those who aren't as worthless and stupid as yourself?

by -[info]swallowedhalo 
24th-Dec-2007 06:24 pm - Holiday Hw
Holiday Hw List

Math - Worksheet
APWH Finish Chapters 17-19
Chinese
  • 5th Day of Chinese New Year Project
  • Write the poem over.
  • Redo def of the other poem.

English Read 100 pages of Huck Finn
Chem
  • Element Dating Profile
  • Textbook hw I have to ask Mahbuba for.
Metal Shop Questions I also have to ask someone else for.

Hell...
-_-
11th-Sep-2007 06:36 pm(no subject)
Ms. Tong is a nut. 
31st-Jul-2007 01:05 am(no subject)
It's weird when you go from a super special awesome satirical HPPDH recap to a badly written sasuke-has-the-hawts-4-naruto-jus-by-hearing-his-smexy-voice-an-then-they-go-on-to-have-hawt-and-sweaty-mansmex fanfiction within two seconds. It still felt like a satire because it was the lulz.

D1S BE THE PWNAGE PPLZ! yahear?!111



((I swear, no more HP spam after this, but this just pwned too much not to be pimped.))
22nd-Jul-2007 06:14 pm - Somewhat review of HP7
So I finished HP7 2:12 this afternoon, and I must say...

I'm not sure where to begin but there were alot of things I did not know what to make of.
Major spoilers, I repeat, major spoilers!

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